A million times over

And yet I’ve so much more to give

So much more love to show

More of me left for you

My glow isn’t complete without you with me

I guess its hard to not want to be your baby

I made a decision to stand by your side

I love you everyday, through good and bad times

No doubts, no trouble

No trials or all

Just me and you rocking this ship

Sailing far from them all

So let them talk, look, stare and sneer

Spread rumours about us and make fuss

I’ve got you; you’ve got mr

Your my baby, definitely meant to be

Death crept up as day passed night

Sunlight faded from this earth

My time has come, his justice undone

I made it through my worse fears

Time to tell where my hell is

I loved too hard

Too strong

Too much

I loved a man who didn’t care enough

Pain seared me as oil seared meat

That was what I was doing to myself

That’s how much I loved thee

I made it my point of duty to go

Go and have this baby

Before you or anyone else know.

As dark as midnight can’t be seen

I’m an ugly duckling mama didn’t want

Papa hated me that he cursed the day I was born

I’m as hideous of a beast

Only nature seems not to hate me

Yet I wait with bated breath to die

Slowly my insides are turning against me

Cause I cant seem to see anything beautiful about me

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She’s as black as midnight

Yet she shine

Moonlight hits her an she glows a radiant colour

Fighting for acceptance from society

If only she knew

How much I love her

Her smile is pearly white

Her laughter moves my heart

Yet her sadness weakens me to the core

I wish she may see her self not as hideous

But as beauty, sweet beauty

Beauty so captivating its riveting

My beauty, her beast

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To love an to hold

To keep an to cherish until death do us part

Am I not worthy enough

To stand an fight

To make my battles be of worth

Am I not free

From pressures an strains

An ill gotten gains

Am I not me

Truth in its realest form

Blessed as God’s own

Am I not…………….

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Dry winds rush in to cry

Piercing through the clouds of dawn

The sun is yet to rise

Loud rackets of noise pave the day

Blaring pains sears the eardrums in vain

“storms’ coming” that’s what they say

Yet I sit an wait

I’ve prepared for this day

Lightning dances across the sky

Thunderous sounds say good-bye

I sit and wait

Without asking why

Death is approaching

Sing me a lullaby

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I did it this time

I didn’t have a choice

So I had to make a run

I knew it was wrong

But was I to do

To stay and take abuse

From the one man that I barely knew

My boss was my only hope

My strength an my king

He fed me when no-one else wanted me to win

But here I am

His mistress love

Abused and torn

Destroyed from above

I guess a shot to the head would leave trails

A knife wound wouldn’t do the damage anyway

But poison worked……yes it does

Large amounts in the system counts

He died a slow death

Painful as is

Now I’m on the run

For killing a politician

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Tell you how much I love you and do it slow

Whisper my every desire and let it show

But I wake this morning and you had to go

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I left without a sound or a trace

I left because this isn’t what I wanted for her

I left because her love drove men crazy….drove me insane

I left because my wife was in my mind

My baby was calling my name

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I sat up in bed wondering why

Went out to the balcony an started to cry

How did I love him and this be

Why couldn’t I tell that he wasnt going to choose me

I saw the sunrise in its most wonderful hues

But pain stung me hard, yes its the truth

I heard dogs bark and children cry

But that wasnt enough to stop my cries

I went into the shadows to hide out the pain

Sat in corner screamed in vain

Found the bottle of pills

Did it my way

Light left my eyes I’m leaving today

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- ” We’re calling to inform you that Ms.Brown is in the ICU at Andrews Memorial Hospital……………….”

I knew what they said

I knew what that meant

She tried to take her life, but it didn’t end

Why did this have to be

How can I love them both without hurting me

I went blank and numb cause I couldn’t cry

I wanted to go but it was too much inside

I left the house not being pleased

Heading to the hospital to be with my baby

And I realise then that I love her so

God help me please

Dont let her go

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Seriously I do

I gotta leave

I’m gonna be late

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I saw the sun rise

It was gloriously wonderful

The golden hues of yellow an orange showing so brightly

I felt the easy caress of the morning wind

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I felt him around me

I knew he wanted more

I could tell….yes, that’s for sure

I sensed his yearning

His lingering touch

The scent of his natural body

I felt this much

But I had to go

Definitely had to leave

My son was calling

His wife was waiting

Yes…..this was the scene

And I………..

I hated to plea

So I needed to leave

Leave before my mind hit reality

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What is sex without me an you doing it in bliss

What is sex without you

What is sex without me

What is sex without great chemistry

What is sex without a bit of teeth an fingernails

What is sex without pain

What is sex without aggression or a bit or a bit of gain

What is sex without the rain

What is sex without screaming my name

What is sex without the handcuffs an chains

What is sex without…………

I could find everything an ask you what is sex without

I could show an make you see

Vividly imagine all of me

But then

What is sex with everything

The touch, the kiss

The magic and all that’s bliss

What is sex…..with or without all of this

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Better yet bitch

But I cant help it

I’m already pregnant

And yes….he’s got to deal with it

In my mind I know its wrong

In my heart I’ll forever sing a sad song

But this is my life

I do what I want to do

But daddy wont see it that way

Not yet not today

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What are you doing, why are you still pregnant?

Daddy I love him, cant you accept that

No I cant…he doesn’t love you! If he did he would have choose you

But daddy please its his baby

So what are you afraid……he’ll know the child is his in time the baby will know

I don’t know, I’m scared to go

I got you baby let’s go

Get on the plane, walk slow

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I stood there looking

Waiting to see

If he would come

If time would stop for me

But they kept calling

And I needed to run

To get away from him

From everything under his sun

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