He said come my way
I said yeah
Now that I’m here
He wants me to stay…..and sway
So I….
I run
I leave
Never to come back or look for thee
Not that I dont want to
But we’re worlds apart in every way
I for me
You for thee
Let my love guide you through eternity
That’s how I want it to be
Find me by day
Love me by night
My tears of joy are in your sight
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They say stay in it to win it
I say f**k it and forget it
Why……………………….
Why the hell am I to like or even love
Why love when hurt is just as wicked as using a gun
Why stay when all you did was lie
Why talk when I just keep hearing baby I tried
Why…..just tell me why
You lied and for some reason I just keep asking why
So, here I am asking myself why
Why didnt I run when my heart started to cry
Why didnt I leave when you made the first lie
Why didnt I go when you just said its alright
Why………..that’s all I want to know
Why
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As pain strips my soul
I no longer feel whole
I dont want to see
It gets harder to breath
I no longer fight to feel
It gets easier to reach
But difficult to get back to thee
Torture has escaped me
And the sands of time is falling quickly
My innate emotion says run
But I……………….
I want to dance
Dance to the music of the sun
I think too late
Yes…………I’ve been burned
Burned again
Burned by love
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As the sun rose and it hit my skin
I felt the pain of him within
I knew it was wrong
I could tell it wasnt right
But just for tonight
I wanted him back in my life
I knew he wasnt mine
I knew he wasnt going to stay
But all I wanted was for him to come my way
I wanted him to want me
I wanted him to love me
I wanted him everywhere
That’s why I was going to have his baby
I could tell he knew I had a plan
But I just wanted him to hold my hand
Take me now and forever more
Love me so that my spirit soars
Make me free like how it used to be
Yes that’s it………
I’m going to carry your baby
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I saw the morning light shine through the creek
I smelt the burning of human flesh
I could hear them screaming out for mercy
That’s when I knew that I was saved
For last that is
I couldnt tell night from day
I was in the cell for how long
And come what may he was going to torture me
For everytime I yelled his name
How did it reach this point
Why didnt I run
Why didnt I asked for help
Why couldnt I come………….come to terms with him an his obssession
But it was too hard for me to understand
The man that I had loved…….was going to kill me
With his bare hands
The stench of blood wreaked in the air
The noise stopped as they were’nt there
Death had taken them from torture an pain
I knew I was next
I heard him call my name
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So there
Your happy
I left…..and now its time for me to make a nest
What else is left
I’m neither happy or sad
I’m just here, in the wilderness
Trying to find my own
My own state
My own peace of mind
My own sanity
After all the things that I’ve been through
I think its time I said good-bye
Good-bye to you
Good-bye to them
Good-bye to the world
I just need peace
Peace that is waiting in a coffin out east
Not that you would understand
But I need to dis-ban
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I wanted to write
I wanted to feel free
I wanted to sing
Sing an be me
I wanted to dance
I wanted to play
I wanted to sit
Just listen to the wind as it swayed
I wanted to run
I wanted to scream
I wanted relief
Relief in knowing that I’m free
I wanted to feel peace
I wanted to have safety
No
I just wanted to be me
That’s it
No strings attached no work no play
Just to be me
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It’s one of those pains
The type that hits you with a heavy force and a hard bang
It’s one of those pains
The type where you scream out uncontrollably
Not that it will do something but it will ease the discomfort in some way
It’s one of those pains
The type where it doesnt make sense to cry
Cause that wont stop the burden
Cry wont make it go away and it doesnt do anything
That’s something like it
It’s just there
Lingering…..festering like a sore
Just waiting for the right time to explode
And then…………
You start to heal
Only to realise that the pain is a cycle
It keep on finding new ways of showing itself
Without you even knowing
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Its was like a stab through the heart
Deadly an severe
And no matter how much I tell myself its going to be ok
The pain gets even worst an reminds me that I’m lying to myself
Its was as if I was hit by a thousand rocks
Trapped below
With no-way out
And no matter how hard I tried no-one seem to hear my cry
Its was like lightning surging through me
And the pain was too extreme to breathe
And it didnt make sense to feel
No was there…..no one cared
It was torture to my soul
Not knowing what to do or how to go
But I had to find a way to breathe
Even if it meant letting go of thee
It was………..
Yeah that’s it
No matter how I try to explain it you will never understand
The pain I feel is greater than any man
The hurt I bear is severly crude
Nothing can stop it
Not me
Not you
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Breath, relax, go easy, move slow
But how do I do that
How do I let go
How do I face myself
How do I say it anit so
How do I say it anit true
How do I do it…do me instead of you
How do I remain true
I try to see if this is surreal but after a mild heart attck
Life tends to be even more real…to me if I may say so
Its funny how life an death are one in the same
Just like how night passes for day to make way
Its funny how God gives an how God take
Just like how my heart felt like it was giving way.
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If needs be I’ll be for you
Just as how you are for me
If needs be I’ll try to love you
Just as how you have loved me
If needs be I’ll be the one to sacrifice my life
Just as how I think you may sacrifice yours
If
Just if
That’s all it will ever be
You will never be able to love
You will never be able to like
You will never be able to put all your hurt an stirfe aside
You will never be able to put away your pride
Because your too caught up complaining about life
I said my peace….now I’ll take my chances with life
If needs be I will face the sun today
I wont turn…..I wont run away
If needs be I will dance
Dance in the rain….it was the one thing that helped through my pain
If needs be I will laugh out loud
My heart is happy an I’m never too proud
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I’ve seen it
I’ve been through it
I’ve done it all
I’ve left it behind
And standing tall
I’ve turned a new leaf
Started a new
Made a difference
Left you
Looked at the sun
Felt the rain
For once I am seeing myself in a whole new way
I’ve seen it all
Done it all
Cried myself to sleep at nights
Thinking that you would at least try
But then I left and now I know why
Been there
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Moving slowly
With sands driving me deeper into the earths core
I’m yet to see why I love you and you can’t stand the sight of me
I’d hate to think that I was the one that made you into this
Made you into the man that had all things bliss
What a bitch!
Moving deeper
With earth as my sheild I am at a place where no-one can find me
And yet still you can’t see
All the things that you really meant to me
I just wanted to love you true an real
But I’m the garbage that you choose to dispose of
So tell me
What’s the deal!
I anit mad
Anit upset
Too tired to cry
Anit going to get into a fit
Anit gonna ask myself why
Cause I knew I tried
I just did what I thought was best
Yup……….laid you to rest
Who would have thought it
Hahaha
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
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How do I define it
My girls………nah my bitches
They are the craziest
They drive me insane….literally
Aggrevate my every nerve
Perplex the fuck outta me
And when its all said and done
I cant help but love em’
They are the exact opposite of me
In true an real form that so hard to see
With a few nixs an nacs here and there
And everywhere
No matter how it may seem
They are the ones that are true to me
Even when I am hard to deal with
Yup………..thats shits definelty for real
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